Late Night Thoughts..

i slept all day and it has left me to be up at this time, thinking about such random things and i feel the need to blog.


i hate the feeling of being used. i also have a hard time saying 'no' sometimes. ive been trying to stay away from being the 'yes man' because then i find people taking advantage of it. im learning to put my foot down and though i super badly hate when people get mad at me for no reason at all or because they couldnt get what they wanted out of me, i then start to feel bad and apologize for something i shouldnt be saying sorry for. im just in a situation that im totally not with at all and its bringing me down so bad that its starting to take control of my thoughts.

drifting away.. drifting from good friends and the friendship not being the same anymore. its really sad but its crazy how peoples attitude change.. well just the way people say things and the way they put their words together. they dont understand that its hurting the other person.

we all have our excuses. mine is being in a relationship. im not afraid to admit it. things have changed with my friends when cory and i were official and in love.. whatever you wanna call it.

going to different schools. you start to see less of that person or your group of friends. it leads to making new friends. making friends with people in your classes and making plans with them leads you guys to become closer friends.

then theres the people you hang out with. youre close friends or best friends. the ones you talk to everyday and talk to about your life. they have such a big influence to who you can become or the way you act or react to things. you might even catch on to their attitudes and they way they pursue things. then you start talking like each other.. share the same lingo.


dude, i dont even know what im trying to say anymore. im too lazy to re-read what i typed up there. life... life is malfunctioning right now. no the world is. people are malfunctioning. just everything is. this blog was unsuccessfully unfinished because my thoughts are just going crazy. what a fucking waste. ok i will attempt to redo this blog in a more sensible, well-reasoned, well-thoughtout manner.