Procrastination.

3 projects due tomorrow -_-
be back to blog later!

you think you know..

but you have no idea.

David After The Dentist

hahaha so funny

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i couldnt think of a good title.. like a title that would just POP. haha anyway just an update on my life. umm lets see. school is still fun and its going very well. my instructors showed us our test scores on i think 5 of recent tests, both practical and written, and i got 4 100%'s and 1 98%. we had our virgin bleach, bleach retouch, virgin tint, and color retouch (dye) practical today and i got a 100% in it :) the freshman portion of my class is coming to an end in 2 weeks...!! its gone by soo fast! then we move on up to being juniors which means ill be on the clinic floor, which means clients, which will all hopefully be successful! lol anyway so for the last 2 weeks its mainly focusing on group and indiviual porjects. i have a paper due on friday. i should be doing that instead of this lol.

im a bit bummed out that everyone is or will soon be on spring break and ill still be at school. all i could think about is the 4 day weekend my school has in may haha. and as i mentioned before, i dont get a summer break either :( buuut on the bright side, my family and i will be going on a cruise in june :) im soooooo soo soo excited for that!

im going to a passion party on saturday held by the wonderful ms. emi chan lol. im looking foward to see how that night will go haha. me and corys 8 months is coming up soon :) my birthday is next month guyss. april 21st! so is my sister (apr 9), my brother (apr 20), and like 5 other people in my class.

k im done here. see you at the next blog!


"to live is the rarest thing in the world. most people exist. that is all." -oscar wilde

Late Night Thoughts..

i slept all day and it has left me to be up at this time, thinking about such random things and i feel the need to blog.


i hate the feeling of being used. i also have a hard time saying 'no' sometimes. ive been trying to stay away from being the 'yes man' because then i find people taking advantage of it. im learning to put my foot down and though i super badly hate when people get mad at me for no reason at all or because they couldnt get what they wanted out of me, i then start to feel bad and apologize for something i shouldnt be saying sorry for. im just in a situation that im totally not with at all and its bringing me down so bad that its starting to take control of my thoughts.

drifting away.. drifting from good friends and the friendship not being the same anymore. its really sad but its crazy how peoples attitude change.. well just the way people say things and the way they put their words together. they dont understand that its hurting the other person.

we all have our excuses. mine is being in a relationship. im not afraid to admit it. things have changed with my friends when cory and i were official and in love.. whatever you wanna call it.

going to different schools. you start to see less of that person or your group of friends. it leads to making new friends. making friends with people in your classes and making plans with them leads you guys to become closer friends.

then theres the people you hang out with. youre close friends or best friends. the ones you talk to everyday and talk to about your life. they have such a big influence to who you can become or the way you act or react to things. you might even catch on to their attitudes and they way they pursue things. then you start talking like each other.. share the same lingo.


dude, i dont even know what im trying to say anymore. im too lazy to re-read what i typed up there. life... life is malfunctioning right now. no the world is. people are malfunctioning. just everything is. this blog was unsuccessfully unfinished because my thoughts are just going crazy. what a fucking waste. ok i will attempt to redo this blog in a more sensible, well-reasoned, well-thoughtout manner.

Its Crazy How Things Change

its crazy how you thought you knew someone and then just one day you just seem to know nothing. i know we all change for the good and the bad. im not gonna lie, i know i have changed in many ways. besides the whole growing up part, my life is completely different than it was a year ago. from the people i hang out with, to who im super close to, to my daily sched and even to my appearance.. from long hurr don curr to short hurr donnt currrrr & a couple of lbs heavier -_- haha how fucking sad but on the real, its just crazy.
a year ago, it was my senior year in hs and i was going crazy with always partying on weekends and school nights, i was single too and that right there makes a big diff now a days. the people i hung out with which was pretty much meccamee heads all day errday and my best friends. school, working, and dance took up most of my time then.
& now i gotss myself a boyfriend. he takes up like my life lol. im always with him so now im hanging out with his friends. met a buncccch of new peoples. and school! oh man.. having school everyday seems like high school all over again but much better... despite the fact that im at school for 8 1/2 hours, monday- friday, no spring break, no summer break, just a few holidays and winter break for time off -_- i barely ever see my friends.. like the ones who were attached to my hip even before i got with my boo thang. we sorta just drifted apart. its really sad but hey, people change. we're at diff schools so that means new plans with new friends and that just leads to drifting from one friend and getting closer to the other. but life happens. some may have changed attitudes or reasons. whatever the reason, there will always be changes.

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found these quotes in one of my salon books from school---

"life is not a destination. life is a journey. as long as you continue the journey, you will always be a success." - albert camus

"its easy to make a buck. its a lot tougher to make a difference." -tom brokaw

"time is the coin in your life. it is the only coin you have, and only you can determine how it will be spent. be careful lest you let other people spend it for you." - carl sandburg

"people are just about as happy as they make up their mind to be." -abraham lincoln

"kind words can be short and easy to speak but their echoes are truly endless." -mother teresa

"saying nothing... sometimes says the most." -emily dickinson

"even if you are on the right track, you will get run over if you just sit there." -will rogers

"attitude is a little thing that makes a big difference." -winston churchill

"obstacles are what you see when we take out eyes off our goal." -roslene glickman

"the time is always right to do what is right." - dr. martin luther king jr.



k ill be back soon to post some pictures up of what ive been doing in school :)

its a hard knock life

life just doesnt get any easier when youre getting older. i find myself struggling a lot more now-a-days. im finding it hard to make some decisions sometimes and it just stresses me out. i miss having such a carefree life. i wish i was a kid again! getting away with things i cant do now. having my parents decide for me so i dont have to stress. not having drama or having to deal with problems that im dealing with now. but i have to grow up some day... and now is that freaking time! gotta stick it out on my own. it makes me sad though because if i were to get into any type of trouble, my parents have that choice of not being there, friends have that choice of not supporting anything.. just lonely old me. its just a scary thought of being alone in this world. i cant image life without having those who are beside me. people now are more about themselves. they only care about where they are and where they need to go. some people dont find the need to be a helping hand and help someone who is in need... and those people need to go f*** themselves... haha jk. shooot, we are who we are. do what you gotta do. go with your instincts. do what is right! i just need to lower my stress level down to about zero and that would be fine haha. i gotta stop running away from problems and just solve the damn thing because itll just haunt me until i do something about it. its a hard knock life!

Time

someone once told me that time was the most important things you could ever give someone. no one really realizes how much time we have, get, lose, or recieve. you need time to see your loved ones. you need time to fall in love. you need time to keep for yourself. you need time to make mistakes.. and time to learn from them. you need time to have a life. you need time to plan your life. you need time to find yourself and who you truly are. you need time to heal. you have good times and bad times. your timing could be off sometimes but you have all the time in the world to make up for it. some people think time goes by so fast and they wished that time could go slower or to have more time in the day. but sometimes we lose time. we wish we could go back in time. or we need more time that we just cant have. we wished we had more time with a certain someone. we needed more time to sleep. we need more time to make just enough money to pay bills. its crazy how time works.. and we just never know what, when, where, how time will be. be kind and cherrish your time. spend time with your family, kids, boyfriend, husband, lover, neighbors and friends. give yourself time to love yourself. everything happens for a reason. give time a chance to do its magic.



i love you.
i time you.
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shmello!

now for my blog about whats been going on with me for the past few weeks.. ive been sick, sicker, and sickest. it was really bad. it started with just a migrane then to a fever. it went away for a few days and then came back 10x worse. the fever came back while i was in school. i had to take an early out. and soon after that it turned into the flu. oh it was horrible! i use to never get sick like that and baaaaammm, it came out of no where. im glad to say im feeling so much better and healthier :) still coughing w/ a stuffy nose but im better than before so im happy about that. school is going great. family is doing fine.

my boyfriend is wonderful. it still makes me sad only seeing him on the weekends pretty much. it went from every single day to weekends and nights that im not tired and exhausted ill sneak a visit. yes, i used to see him every day and never got tired of him haha. but now its good in a way because then we can get our other priorities done with no distraction.. well maybe a little distraction lol but not enough to knock me off the track. i also realized that i need to get myself an effing job because hes too nice to me. hes pays for everything and i never have anything to give him back in return except for my undying love of course haha. and hes the reason why i gained so much damn weight -_- that makes me sad too haha oh gosh so lame but sooo true! he told me "baby its ok.. it means your happy and in love." he was right im really happy and in love with him but i dont like what its done to my body image. im in a total different body. same person! just a few pounds heavier :( i cant believe i even have the guts to be saying this on my blog but im just saying what and how it makes me feel so if your disgusted, then leave. anyway, yes job is what i need to pamper him and treat him like a princess this time. but its soo hard right now because of school.. and meccamee.. which........ ill talk about another time. ill try to work it out though. school is not cheap and i need to start paying it off soon enough. anyway, i think this update is good enough for now. ill be back to blog blog blog smore.

**someone hook it up with a job! school tuition is kickin my ass -____-

remember........ time.
i time you..